Dull unsophistacated and uncomplexed...That would be my life!!

It's like coming to this grim realization at the end of the day, after what ever said and done my life is still the same. Nothing's changed. I tried so hard to change me. But it's not working. The only thing which has changed is the point of view in which I look at the world. A more matured point of view I wonder?? Hmm well I dunno. So strange that I can't figure out myself after 21 years!!

My life is so uncomplicated. I don't have to think so hard to make decisions on my life. And worst of them all it's so predictable(except for the exams). Yeah my exams are like the only drama I get in my life. Other drama, I create myself to appease myself. And when all is done I reminisce about it and I like hav this feeling at the back of my head telling me " U did it for yourself mate".

Even my physique hasn't changed in ages. Same old me!! My weight of coz hasn't budged from around (42-45)!! I'm a freaking walking skeleton!! As astounding as it may sound. It really bothers me. I'm really worried about myself. Hmm whining I guess now I am.....

Nothings been wrong last couple of weeks. I got through my exams. Connected with my cousins after ages. Met my friends.. OH and got sick!! I love that one i guess. That's at least drama. After once in a while. I can talk about it. I actually Wikipedia all my ailments and all the medicine I got. It was so fascinating to learn about what u get and what u hav.

Had a night out with some of my friends. It was really cool. Once in a while to booze out in the beach, in the night too. Got a busy schedule coming up. Got the colors night of the uni day after tomorrow. And am so confused on what am I suppose to do with my B'day. Coz the guest list seems to be a bit too big!!!

And I dunno These days am havn doubts abt some ppl. Questioning there motives. hidden agendas. And i'm really striving to get answers about them. What are these people really upto?? Who knows..... Over and out...

Ciao

New me.... I guess... I wish.....

Well the transformaton is done i guess.  The profile change has taken it's effets on me lately.  Well I sort of feel it.  I love the more solitary life which i tend to have hated most time in my life.  It's seems to me that there's more to be discovered among yourself than in others.  And slowly I walk the path of rediscovering my self.  Distancing myself from society has been an integral part of my new profile change.

Well it's better to roughout whats's been hapening in the last few months.   As I'm Bloggin after a lapse of about 1-2 months.  Time flew by as fast as it could ever.  It was incredulously fast.  Well it had reasons to be so fast.  Of course the major fact been our project.  The semester long pain in our ass.  I sort of got through the project pretty fine, I guess.  And the experience was.... I dunoo, new?  it would be more of an overstatement to mention it as something new.  The people involved in it may be new but the work involved was certainly, bitterly and exhaustingly uneventful and had an air of been used.  Which if blamed should be upon my account, given the poor leadership qualities I have shown.  Although my team members may disagree on this fact I personally think I should rework my leadership skills in a major way.  Any how we managed to scape the project without that much of a hassale.  Well at the end enjoyed some innocent pride which poured in from some corner which made me feel quite good :)

Well thats just one aspect of my last few months.  The other one of course was the year end examination.  Well this was one exam that I actually did study a bit.  And today when I'm writing this entry I'm expecting results of this exam within the next 24 hours.  That's if SLIIT live's up to it's punctuality!!!  The exams was a mixture of exhaustion and unceratainty.  Coz the papers were designed in such a way that none of us were really sure about what we were about to expect.  We'll see that tommorrow. *fingers crossed.

Of course the other major topic.  My travel plans to the great outback!!.  That would be Aussie.  It seems Sri Lanka is categorized as a level 4 country in the latest rankings put up by the Aussie Foreign Dep't.  Thats all shit coz that would only mean more restrictions on what we have to show!! An yway I got my offer lettter from the Uni. And I'm now waiting for the final results to show up.  And I'm so nervous about it as well.

And now for the people update.  Hmm... Well I got to know about this beautiful young lady whom I met from my project(think I mentioned earlier in another entry).  Actually I've known her since before the project but only the project made me get to talk with her and get to know her better.  And I saw a totaly different side of her.  I should say she one of the truely inspiring people I've ever known.  The past couple of months also shed some light about a few people I've known for some time.  Which only made me cement my stance on my new makeoverof my profile.  I mean I was startled at how oppurtunistic people were.  That for certain people friendship is a mere thing that can be played with.  How genuine they were?  What shady ulterior motives that they had to make friends with me.   How they handled certain isssues which were quite sensitive to me.  All these matters which I think lead to revaluate my point of view about these people.  When I saw them turn a blind eye towards some issues and act as if nothing has happened and wanted to justify their actions made me sick.  It's just that yet again I've trusted the wrong people at the wrong hands.

My Health is quite a worry for me these days.  As I've been hit my a multitude of ailments.  So I think I should get some slep tonight.  I'll continue this post tommorrow night hopefuly that is. ;)

Departed, farewell

Well life it is.... We are born for one thing. And that's death. We all die one day, Juz that when it'll embrace us is the big question. One of my friends (and relative) embraced it last week. Which was a shocker which took me out of no where. I was really taken back with this, Reminding me of how fragile life is. Resistance is futile, juz that u Should do something to make it better and definitely not longer. And I'm sure my friend had done all the things right to make his life better and not longer. His untimely death was no means a thing to be sad about juz because how well and full he lived all his short life, would make it look as if he may have outlived most of the sinners in this world. Only an angel can be even compared to this friend of mine who was truly good at heart. Guess all good things have to come to an end.

What amazes me is that I can't think nothing he ever did to break someone or hurt someone. How innocent and genuine he was. I thought for myself that he never belonged here. Guess this is natures way of balancing good and evil. We sinners juz have to watch em all good men die.

Farwell my friend... May you attain Nirvana... Eternal bliss.....:'(

Ohhh..Not again...Hav my excuses..

Shit... I know it's been way to long for me to make a post. But this time its for real. Moi really busy these days. It's the darn project that's ticked me off for good. Its juz too much for an average 21 year old to handle. Any way, where to start? So much has happened the past few days.

Hmm well I never thought I would have to mention about Jello here. But yes I have to. Some shit has happened and by now I guess its juz ok. But juz to make a note I would have to mention wht really happened. I got to know from Contession that jello has told her to ask something from me. Hmm alrit whats this? Well it seems this guy (I assume she's goin out with) had told her that I'm talkin bull about him. * Screach to a break!! Whoa now hold on a sec. What was that again?? Yep you heard me right. What the fuck I hardly knows the guys name. And I'm suppose to talk bull about him!!! Get a life pal I thouht for my self. I actualy didn't even go talk with him. It's his problem aight? He should come and talk with me. He didn't come and talk either.

Out of all the bull shit it's been all up and down. Sigiriya ofcouse, the batch trip. OMG juz was an awesome ime we had. Juz blasted our selves. ANd yeah no booze!!! U imagine that we juz blasted ourselves withput a single drop of alcohol. So its possible.

Got my IELTS results. Got thru it. But it seems my semester GPA has dropped drastically coz of my Imagincup endeavour......

Project update... Submitted the proposal, the SRS and had our prototype presentation. Well all of them were cool I guess. Well I hope so. I did screw some stuff though as the leader. Take full reponsibility for my actions. But then again does it really matter. Coz it want change anything would it? ButI have to say that I have been working my ass off last few days for this so called project.

SLIIT is juz awesome as ever before. Guess thats what really makes life roll. I mean amidst all this chaos, downs and frustration the people who are really close to you they juz make u roll. I'm so happy that I have a lot of people who can make me feel better when things ain't that well.

Guess thats my update after a long time. Oh and have to say my bus ride's got a lot more eventful lately. If u know what I mean ;)

Someone revealed | Tired

Well, something juz made me forget about someone, which was pretty hard for me to do for sometime now. And this someones true nature is so perplexing. It seems that people around this someone (I mean the people really close to this one) hardly knows of this persons double life. I particularly sympathize on someone I know who trust this someone too badly. And if this someone I know, gets to know about this I really don't know what this someone would do. So let's just say I really don't know about it.

But I'm sure this will come out soon enough so that everyone would know. Whats so strange is that I have no clue whatsoever for why this person is hiding this from the rest of the world? Well then this someone may have their own reasons. So may it be. Well the someone I know who knows this someone thinks they know about this someone. And I feel pity that this someone has betrayed the someone I know badly. From what I know the someone I know cares a lot about this someone. And this someone has mislead them all.

So tired thanx to our projects. Had to go out with my team to get information about the system that we are going to build. Came back and started to work furiously on writing the project proposal. It's a piece of shit. Got to write our ass of to fulfill the needs of our dear beloved project lecturer. Apparently who seem to be the most cursed person at SLIIT right now! Anyway I'm dead tired frustrated yet so cool thanks to my friends.

Responsibility || This is the reality check when it comes to responsibilites for me

I don't think I've been this tired my life concerning my academic life. The project has taken it's toll on me. It seems not just the physical effort you put into it that counts. But the mental stress you go through to get your act together.. This would have been a different story if I wasn't to be the leader. But here I'm leading a bunch of strangers. Well with leadership comes responsibility. And it was a strange feeling for me when people were actually looking at me to guide them. They were expecting me to make decisions. Not just decisions correct ones for that matter.

I have lead people before but this time circumstances were different. Different scenario altogether. These people, I never knew them before. And of cause except for a few most are average students. So it's up to me to get this group straight and take it forward. So may it be. This feeling for the first time gave me goose bumps. Was so uncomfortable to know that there isn't anyone else but it's just me. Darn!!

The whole weekend I was tired. Had to visit several companies to check out projects. And finally we found one. Which is a leading cable company in Sri Lanka. So it's crunch time. We have to pull our selves together and beat the deadlines which seem to loom over us like huge black thunder clouds.

I had my IELTS exams. I really don't want to comment about it for the time being. I'm so nervous about this project scene. Simply because my decisions would be under the microscope. And I'm feeling the heat. Hope I'll do well just for the sake of me and my other fellow team members.

Escapade to Dambulla

Alright me back from Dambulla. Ohh escapde?? Ya bit I guess. Nut this wasn't really the escape that I had in my mind. Well Haldummulla scars are yet to be healed. Well it all started with a text message I recieved Friday evening from my best buddy saying he will show up. Well I was pretty happy about it. I mean come on was supposed to be the most boring outing. I was dead tired when I showed up at uncle Basils place thanx for some all day cricket fiesta. Ayomi akii was there and so was Russ. Me my buddy, Ayomi akki and my sis all got into Russ's vehicle and we sped off.

And wow we started getting calls from our parents asking us to travel in tandem with there vehicles (in the middle!!) as soon as we tried to speed. Well poor Russ had a nasty time controlling his emotions just hit the the peddle. Well it was all fun inside the car with all of us cracking jokes and stuff. Anyway the boring drive came into an end and here we are in Dambulla at a around 2.00 'o clock I guess.

Me and my buddy started off the with moving stuff. Darn it was messy. And I was damn tired as well. I went to sleep almost immediately. The mosquito's gave me a hell of a time stinging and buzzing. So it wasn't comfortable at all. Rosa showed up that morning to liven things up. Guess she too was bored with proceedings that day. I mean it was juz below ordinary. We were stuck inside this house with plenty of food to eat. No alcohol and the great out doors were out of bounds for us. Thanx to our wonderful past records. Geez I just went three papaya trees away from the garden. And bang fire alarms!! Mom dad uncles aunts all calling us to come back!! I was frustrated with my folks and was in a bit of a grumpy mood. Guess the Dambulla heat made it even worse.

The day was an utter waste. I was so frustrated that I actually wasted a day which I could have made some money while having some fun, if I was at home. Next day woke up. And was so eager to get the hell out of that wretched place. Anyway I guess Basil uncle was a bit upset(only person to even think about what we felt!!!) about us feeling so grumpy. So he decided to take us to the pool. Ya well that was awesome. specially with the Dambulla heat. And yeah it was time to get home. Was so pleased. And we drove back in Russ's car. Met chinthsz on the way. Was back from the Bradby.

What was the real fun in this escapade?? Ya good queation. Well at least I had my eyes off from a computer for 3 days straight. And of coz hanging around with my favorite friends was reallly awesome. The food was juzt superb!! Loved it all the way. Thanx to Nilanthi auntie. Well the pool and thats it i ges. The worst drive I've ever had so nothing there.

SO that was the great escapade. Escapade I guess.

Project!!

It was the third day of our second semester. We got the message the previous night that our project groups have been announced. And we were all nervous and our fingers crossed hoping our friends would click together. The shuttle came late that morning so we were in a real hurry. As for the fact that I had cut my earlier lecture which was suppose to be my 1st lecture, this was my first lecture. So I was in a real hurry. Still I couldn't resist the urge to have a peek on my project group. I rushed into the notice board and had a look. Feverishly searching for my name. Clock was ticking and couldn't find my name. So I went to the lecture. Inside everyone was talking about the project groups. I tried to see if anyone had checked my name. I was shocked to hear that I was a standalone player in my group!!!! Noway. No friends? Well no one they knew.

I was so damn frustrated the whole lecture. Was practically counting the seconds away till it was finished. And bang I sped away from the lecture room to check the groups. And I finally found my name on the list with the help from one of my friends. I was going through my buddy list. And gosh... There they were. Some chiks I knew. At last some one I know. And my friends were true. There wasn't anyone from our click.

Well the only one I really know in our group was a girl from our batch. Have to say she's really good. And has a near 4.0 GPA. So I wasn't really all down with our group. The other girl I knew was actually from batch 2. Well lets juz say we used to text each other through the course web those days. And this was the 1st time we actually met and talk. Some other guys were there too. Out of them there was only one person whom I knew properly.

But all in all my guess is that our group seem to be on the better side compared with what others had! And I'm sort of looking forward to start off my project work too.

Oh and this is really interesting. I think I've mentioned about this woman in my blog long time back. I had a crush on this particular woman. Well I heard today that this woman was seen hanging around with this guy in a shopping mall. Someone told me she was going out with a guy but this was the real confirmation. Guess it should be curtains down on her..lol.

I'm going out this weekend with my parents and some friends. Well C in particular. My best buddy seem to be not coming and I've got the feeling that this is going to be one of those boring weekend trips I've been. I wander even if C would appear. Gosh I'm going to hang on a return bus to Pettah and come back home if that happens!!

Cmon...moi that unimportant!!!!! WTF was I thinking!!!

Ok this sukzz. Well it didn't start out that bad. It all started with a friends B'day treat. One of my friends who was going out with one of Jello's friends invited me and another friend of me to help them out in a project. Thou I was a bit lousy getting into this given my previous experience I just thought it maybe for a good cause (Helping out). Anyway my friend was all hyped up about this and I was dragged on to this. Well I had the 1st ever meeting with a client in a bit of a professional level. Well to be frank the only professional thing about our meeting was tea!! Which our client bought us generously. Jello wasn't there. Heard she was inside a lecture. Which obviously meant that these women were cutting lectures. Couldn't really accuse them of anything thanks for the fact that I was cutting my lectures too!!! Anyway 4gt about those plastics.. All the while they were explaining this question they made remarks such as "Ane mei gollo hari shok ne..." "Hari sweet ane.." Was thinking to my self and was saying "Ya my ass.." Plastics all the way.

Anyway our rendezvous with the plastics ended and we went off to play cricket. Had an awesome time. And the plastics even came to the field and got me a printed version of the question. Well have to say one woman who was with'em didn't really suite be called a plastic. So this particular team was made up with the 2 plastic chiks Jello and the other non plastic woman. Guess she's organic or what ever.

Was dead tired when I came back home but started doing the presentation. And then only it struck to me that Oh no, this is damn hard. I had to go through endless search pages read'em and simplify'em and write them in my own words. Thank god we had Operating systems last semester which really helped me. I was suppose to mail this presentation before 10.30 p.m to Jello. well it was 10.15 and I still had about 5-6 slides left and none of the animations and effects were really finished. Then one of the plastics called me up and told me to bring the presentation tomorrow morning. I said ok and finished the Presentation some where around 12:30. By the time I had dozed off a couple of times infront of the computer and my eyes hurt really badly. And of coz Contession bugged me too.

And then woke up in the morning when my phone rang, which displayed a land line no. I was like WTF this early, who the hell is this. Then I got the feeling that this might be one of the plastics. And I answered. My voice was all hoarse and my head was all turning. Ohh it was Jello. She had expected my mail last night and was checking whether I had mailed it. And of course I hadn't. So it happened and I got dressed and was off to SLIIT.

Gave the presentation in the morning. Was juz me and Jello in the morning at the labs. And I must have mumbled about ummm... 10 words all the while? Ya I guess. Anyway I gave it and after a while her friends showed up. I gave a breif explanation about the show and retired to play ET with my friends.

And then in the evening Contession came up and bugged me saying I got a call in the morning. Was wandering..hmm how did she know?? and she told me that Jello got the no from her. I didn't want to get bugged furthermore so I went off. And then it got into my mind wait a sec Jello had called me several times before. That was back when I did her 1st Presentation. So why ask for my no? Of coz I dunnno whether it was my right brain or my left brain which answered saying "Duh idiot she doesn't have it...And why the fuk should she ever have it...." Reality check 1.1

No wonder why there was no reply from Jello for my new year wishes(embarrassing even when I recall it). Reality check 1.2. Well it was the real story. What was I thinking in the first place. Who am I to even have a crush on some one like Jello? Skinny, small, piece of joke to even think of some one like that?? duh! Reality check 1.3. Thats when it all really struck me. I wonder how many people really even know me seriously except for the fact that I'm a real piece of joke at SLIIT(For that fact my whole life time). I always wandered what people thought of me. How they sized me up. How seriously they took my feelings, my opinions and of course what I care. Most importantly how important I was for them as a person. Well a chain reaction of thoughts just carried me to the ends of my personality.

I know for a fact that a reality check is never easy for me. I mean when was it easy? Well this time around I felt really unimportant. Anyway 2nd semester kikn off....Groups have been assigned for the projects. And oh Boy I've got no idea who'll be my new team mates!!!

My emotions simplified | Definitions

Freakin awesome : This is the best you can get out of me!! I'm just over the moon. And I'm probably out of my senses too. Usually this means I'm up to anything. Would also mean that its dangerous because usually this means I'm up to some mischieve.
Reason for emotion :? Some achievement while playing, Seriously Drunk, Hanging out with ma friends and seriously gone crazy (the friends syndrome), Trying to show off(yeah sometimes I do that | usually to prove something)
Actions :? Loud laughter, Jumping around in different poses, Nothing to loose attitude which result in various acts of mischievousness, In short I'm flying and carefree.

Jolly good : This is my normal chill out mood which I hang around with usually. Usually has a smile. Not always thou. Sometimes it maybe just a smirk. But I'm cruising.
Reason for emotion :? Nothing too over pleasing. Just the normal day to day life's activities which I'm really enjoying.
Actions :? Chirpy behavior, Most of the time I'm dreaming in this gear, imagining stuff about people and about me, Usually lot of stuff go into my mind in this state.

Serious : This is when I'm either studying for my exams or encountered with a real problem that I've taken serious!! This is not that usual and hard to observe. This mood can result in either jolly good or upset depending on the result of the activity I've indulged in.
Reason for emotion :? Studying, Encountered with a problem and I have taken it pretty seriously ( now thats serious!!), decision making, thinking/planning my future(thats a very rare occurrence)
Actions :? Usually my hand is some where in my face (mouth, forehead e.t.c), I maybe wandering around looking clues from the environment, Scratching my head, fiddling with my hair.

Flat : When my emotion'o'meter is going up and down this occurs. This means my positive moods are been negated by my negative moods and vice versa. This usually means rough times.
Reason for emotion :? Happy times or bad times with both of them in the middle.
Actions :? I go all smug sometimes but i can squeeze a laugh or 2. This doesn't occur that often.

Upset : This ain't good. Somethings wrong. Occurs when I'm not happy over something. Not the best of moods. May be a touch aggressive too. CHIK PROBLEMS!!
Reason for emotion :? Usually when i disagree over something, when expected results don't come out from a certain activity, when someone mistreats me, demean or act disrespectfully.
Actions :? A bit pissed sometimes, talks less, thinks a lot, don't get things into my head that quickly or it never actually happens, Smug face.

Super upset : OH boy this isn't good at all. well for a fact this is very rare. Actually I can recall all most all the moments I've been in this mood my whole life. It's that rare and hardly occur.
Reason for emotion :? Well this when I'm really hurt by some one or something. I'm not that good when it comes stuff regarding my mom and partings. So usually this is either one of them. Other than that when I breakup with my friends too I feel this bad but usually it's upset. Then again when a shocking failure comes up I get super upset. Sometimes when I'm shaken by something this happens too.
Actions :? Hardly talks, thinks the whole time, become solitary away from the hustle, Have my eyes glued at the same spot for a really long time, my thoughts are not clear and the things that I get from the outside gets a hell of a lot of time to be processed, my reflexes are really slow and concentration levels are really down.


So that's my array of emotions. The moment I'm writing this entry I'm in a jolly good mode. Who knows maybe I'll juz go freakin awesome or upset in another second!!!

What?? Stopped Vectoring!!!!!

Hmm... Well I've figured out by now the best thing I can do in my life is Vectoring. Which I was so into and well which I seem to have aced a bit. But yep I quit vectoring. Don't know why but i juz felt so. For how long I'll stay out of Vectors? Who knows....

Anyway last couple of weeks were like going on sleigh ride. Up and down. Had my exams.. All 4 on the trot!! DUH!! WTF what was the Sliit admin thinking?? I was soo tired depressed and overwhelmed by all of that exam bullshit. Anyway its over.

Well I have to say last 3 or 4 weeks partying was the name of the game. Had an awesome time jumping form one party to the other. B'day treats and juz pure fun partying. Well the most interesting outing was with ma Maldivian freinds. Who came over to Sri Lanka to watch the SAAF finals between India and Maldives. Apparently Maldives beat us in the Semi Finals 1-0. I got the call to come over and join them. But had no idea where we were going. Only when I got into the car that i figured out we were headed to the match!!!! And wallah we were there and only when I went in I figured that The other side was actually India!!!hahaha The atmosphere was cracking!!! Over 4000 maldives had apeared in Sri Lanka juz to watch the match. And all of'em were here. OMG the live music(there version of papare) And the chiks!!!! Oh yeah.. Maldivian chiks rule. Anyway met our friends and cheered for Maldives and they won. Oh shit these guys like broke into a fervor when the actual goal was scored and it kept on like that till they got the cup. No partying that day. They had there own party with there fellow countrymen. Next day we fixed a time and we met again. This time at Trans Asia. Had an awesome time there. Surprised my frnds wife on her B'day and was all good.

Poson came and went. Had some fun with dansal...hehe. All these days I've been playing cricket like hell. Oh feel so good. What could be better than going out in the sun and playing some good old cricket. So awesome!!!!

Well some one said I should put up a job as a counselor. Well yeah I've been listening to people. As I mentioned before I'm a people person. I love people. But I feel a bit hurt when I hear how cruel people can be. Juz sick!!!

Anyway...Im really enjoying life these days. Waiting for my next semester to kick off. WoW how awesome can that be. A bit nervous about my exam results. Got my IELTS exams next 5th too. Oh and Basil uncles here from Italy. May go out somewhere. Not sure whether I'm going thou. Sister havn exams and all. Hope at least I can get thru. Darn...

A lot to look forward to. Hope everything goes fine...:D

Flat :-|

Ya its flat.:) It's not fine nor its bad. So it's flat. Had some awesome times with my friends. Attended a lot of parties. Ya loads of them. And I shaved my head!!! lol. Feel a lot more lighter. There were odd days I felt a bit down for some certain reasons. Things that made me remind me of my past.

Well one incident was when I watched this movie. Well I watched dozens this past month or 2!! The one I mentioned was "P.S I Love You". Starring Hillary Swank and Gerard Butler. Was awesome, all the while painful. It made me think of Jello. Why? Well I don't know. But the film was superb. But it made me think a lot. And that made me a bit gloomy for a certain period of time.

My Renatacoder life was also kicking off. Got some bids accepted. And got the money too. Also had a client signing me off with private auctions;-) . This is really cool. My facebook time has also drastically dropped. I really didn't have that much hype to really goof around facebook anymore. This would mainly account to the fact that I hardly indulge my self in Fightclub. My favorite application in facebook.

Well all these days I learned a lot from someone. Well she's been through a lot. And some stuff I really don't think she deserves at all. And when I hear them I really think how cruel people can be when it comes to relationships. When I hear all these stories she has gone through I was like, geez I seriously lack drama in my life. She has poured a great part of her experiences to me. And from what I heard I also got to know how women think. Sometimes they are just over conscious about stuff. Relationships are based on trust. And people should know to trust each other. I think this is the main reason why relationships collapse. Anyway she's a wonderful woman and I'm glad to have conversed with her about all her lives adventures. And it's good to know there's always someone whom I can turn on when things just go horribly wrong.

And of course there's this characters I have met long ago but failed to judge who they were and now slowly appearing in bits and pieces who they are what they do and there agendas. This person I'm reffering to is a close friend of mine. Has his own agenda to get to the top. And would sacrifice anything on his way to achieve it. Very social. Can get around anything with his pep talk. And is also a pervert. He's got his own woman (who is a pretty innocent and short sighted woman, also has a poor judgment on people whilst can be fooled very easily) and plays around with many woman who I know and is desperately trying to catch some more birdies I know. Well this ain't my business. So I would not wish to speak further about this person. But I can hardly blame him. For he is a genius of his own trait. So may it be.

I also went to Katharagama with my family. Well it was boring. But also made me wander what people do. I mean there beliefs and how they act upon them. Deities who we worship. Well I don't see anything wrong with that, just that how they worship them is my point of argument. I really don't see any point of offering fruits and money to deities. For what lord Buddha has preached is once you do any work of merit just think that some of these merit that we've done belongs to the deities. Thats it. Thats what the deities want. Well the best part of the trip was the drive. Whoa awesome!!!

So It's been like this for some time now. A lot of thinking, observing and listening. Hardly any actions.Thanx for the fact that it's holidays. I'm on the process of revamping my character. I want to change it!!!! But have to start studying for my exams. Which will kick off some where around the 6th of June. So a lot ahead. And of course the 6 finalists have been announced. Nope we ain't there. But we are just keeping our fingers crossed in been selected for the top 20 at least.... hope fully :) It's over and out.........

it's une superbe vecteur de gelée

Ya its a magnificent Vector of Jello! Hmm ya I did another Vector of Jello.  Thought keeping it for myself this time.  Except for the very few.  It was awesome.  1205 layers, 36 hrs, 1/2 a coke bottle, one full EGB and thats what u get.  What was I thinking??? No idea just did it.  Wasn't overwhelmed after  finishing it.  Well i guess it filled up my emotions when it wasn't going that good.  

What wasn't going that good?? Imagine cup. We screwed up big time!! The Game didn't turn out the way we wanted.  We couldn't get a proper map done due to some errors in our collisions.  So we were all down in the final 48 hours before submitting.  So i turned to good old vectoring to fill me up.  And it did.  Nothing was really happening these days.  Was totally committed to our game and my vector.  Didn't even eat properly.  My sleeping pattern was in a disarray.  Sleeping at odd times and staying up till about 4'o 'clock in the morning.

Hoping to get back to normalcy in the next couple of days.  Had  a rendezvous with jello the other day.  Wow! i have blocked her alright.  Geez couldn't even look at her face.

straddling along this strange path I've found.... I'll juz go on.......

I'm Imagining.....:D

Well things have changd?? I dunno may b it has.  Wow is this the 1st time I'm not bloggin about a gal? lol ya i guess so.  Well i guess my jello has gone for good.  Traces of her still lingers in my head when ever i see her.  But I think it's all gone for good.  To be frank this is what's happening around.  I just can't face her anymore.  so I just blocked her away.  It feels bad, but in a way good :-(. 

Any way lot did happen.  Imagine cup Sri Lanka final were held this week.  Got inviited there.  We were supposed to do a presentation.  And we worked our asses off.  Day and night.  Some of my friends even came over to my place to finish the presentation. And it was 3 in the morning when we all went to sleep.  But all in vain when this organizer just came in and said you are guys ain't doing it due to some screw up in our agenda!!!Oh screw u damn it!! Oh shit come on dud we skipped our exams for this shit!! And i paid 1500 for the taxi!!! We were so pissed and helpless and all fucked up.  I felt like sabotaging the whole function by doing some crazy shit!!!  Anyway got the certificates for the 2nd round qualification.  And that was pretty good coz it was from  MICROSOFT.  And we all expected them to throw away free x-box's to us.  Coz we were like the only 2 teams from Sri lanka to make the finals.  But we only got 2 tea mugs that was it.  So good for our X-box dreams.

As I said before we skipped our examinations for the grand finale. We have to submit our game on the 2nd of may and the finalists will be announced on the 24 th of May.  I badly hope that we would get through.  It will get us free tickets to France and to stay there for about a week.  It would be amazing if it happens.  Just keeping our fingers crossed.  Coz we did a good job in our game.  We used some real cool graphics and the game play seem to be really cool.  the only problem I have is that our game play's relevance to the Imagine cup theme.

I think i should give some insight into our game.  It takes place in the future (year 3008).  Some horrible invention has gone wrong and is now ended up in a mess where thee things called Mechs have over taken us humans.  And the game is all about the fight back.  Where we have to preserve the nature and fight back.  Whilst the Mechs eat up all the vegetation and any living being.  

Well it's still raining on and off.  But its damn hot too.  I've lik been away from social life for some time now.  At home doing my game all the time.  And my social life has been replaced by a virtual life.  IM, Facebook, textin, etc 

One of my cousins back here in Sri lanka. Staying for a shrot while.  They all came to our place for a small dinner.  And my cousins wives sister showed up too.  She's just gorgeous.  I just loved every moment she was there. All right what's wrong of admiring some one who's truly gorgeous.

Thats all i guess for now.  Whos knows what's next in line for me.  I'll post some screen shots of our game too :P

Hmmm..

After Sometime..... Ya I know. Wow lot has happened and gone.  I level of self realization is at it's peak i guess.  Well where to start.  As usual my life evolved around a girl last couple months.  Sometimes it makes me think that I 'm some sort of a pervert!!!! But it's me I guess it's natural for a man to have feelings about the opposite sex.  

Alright this particular person, I call her Jello.  I don't know where it came to me.  It sort of rhymed with the word Hello.  You know like hello jello.  Sounded nice. This woman, I wrote on my last blog, well a small introduction.  Not much of an introduction more of my feeelings and how i coped with it.  Yeah i was surprised how far i have matured with my emotions!! 

No point talking about my emotions any more, let me go on with the story. Stuff happened.  Well as in my last post i never wanted to express my feeling towards Jello.  Due to the simple fact that I couldn't do it.  Didn't have the guts.  But i expressed what I felt within myself.  One way I Did so was by creating a vector of her. I sneaked out a picture of her from one of my friends and I drew it. Heres the link of my vector: Jello

Took me 3 days to complete it.  But half way through I sort of realized my pointless creation of this art.  But, well lets juz say it wasn't half way through.  Because most of the art was finished. Anyway I stopped.  Well lets say this creation got into the wrong hands.  One of ma friends saw this and instantly figured out some thing fishy was going on.  And boom he went on to tell her that i had a crush on her!!!

Fuck....  Well I was like... WTF!!  I made myself clear from the start that I wont even make an attempt to express my feelings coz I juz can't do it.  And now what had I got myself into. Well that's not the best part.  Next day night was chatting with her cuz on msn only to hear this. Jello had told her, "Ask 'dollz (a.k.a me)' to stop havn a crush on me"!!! Dump??? no way!!!  I didn't ask her out right? So I wont call it been Dumped.  But, I was confused.  What was I supposed to do?? Scream? Get upset? or juz say 'so what ?' But I had one feeling boiling in my guts.  It was embarrassment *blush.  I'm blushing now while I'm typing.  Next day I found it really hard to come face to face with her!!  

So what did I do?? I had to erase her out of my mind.  Yeah thats what I did.  Forget it.  Unfortunate though.  I enjoyed juz keeping her in my mind but now it was way out of control.  So I juz gave up.  

Well it's rainig these days and raining hard.  Got invited to the imagine cup Sri lanka finals.  Shit scene is we are having our exams next week!! Damn! Cya soon..ciao 

WOW...is my heart skipping a beat or what????

Wow.....1st of all Sliit has changed and it has changed a lot...Its the time of the freshers. New faces all around. Got some cool faces here and there. Ya Sliit is surely going through that kind of period. More like a blooming season. Mid terms juz finished and it's pretty much fun. Things have changed with me as well. So here it goes.

Well first of all I started my ielts course at Acbt. Which i didnt realy find so interesting. But i did meet some cool friends there of coz with exception of ma two best buddies at sliit. Some elder chiks we got to meet there who seem to be quite cool. Anyway more than what we learn there this was more of an escapade for all of us from the weeks busy buzzin!!!

At the start of the year once the freshers were all over the place we were like on our toes. I mean it was like as if we were fed up seeing the same face over and over again. And as usual some people juz homed in the chiks like vultures!!! And of coz competition was high and so was the stakes. It was pretty funny observing people on there strange mating habits. How people tried different ways to attract the opposite sex!!!!

For once in my life i really did have a clear estimation of my abilities and made a wise decision. As of my history would suggest i suck in expressing my feelings towards the opposite sex. I don't know if its my guts or my self confidence that should be blamed for this. But anyway thats the HARSH COLD TRUTH!!! So this time without breaking my heart into another thousand pieces I decided its best for me too keep my feelings at bay and juz sit it out. like any other time even this time one single female was isolated inside my stupid brain. But this time it as different coz i had my feelings under control and when i think of it i have immense personal satisfaction on me. Ya she's cool. May be she's the perfect match!! But i ain't gonna find out. Let time decide what is best for me or if anything is real good for me. So I've changed i don't fall in love for no reason now. And i'm so happy about it too.

And of coz the big news. Me and my team is through to the imaginecup second round!! oh yaaa we r!!! whoop whoop..

Well there isn't much change in my life other than my emotional changeover which I think is for my own best. And of coz I'll make it a point to write here pretty frequently....