Someone revealed | Tired

Well, something juz made me forget about someone, which was pretty hard for me to do for sometime now. And this someones true nature is so perplexing. It seems that people around this someone (I mean the people really close to this one) hardly knows of this persons double life. I particularly sympathize on someone I know who trust this someone too badly. And if this someone I know, gets to know about this I really don't know what this someone would do. So let's just say I really don't know about it.

But I'm sure this will come out soon enough so that everyone would know. Whats so strange is that I have no clue whatsoever for why this person is hiding this from the rest of the world? Well then this someone may have their own reasons. So may it be. Well the someone I know who knows this someone thinks they know about this someone. And I feel pity that this someone has betrayed the someone I know badly. From what I know the someone I know cares a lot about this someone. And this someone has mislead them all.

So tired thanx to our projects. Had to go out with my team to get information about the system that we are going to build. Came back and started to work furiously on writing the project proposal. It's a piece of shit. Got to write our ass of to fulfill the needs of our dear beloved project lecturer. Apparently who seem to be the most cursed person at SLIIT right now! Anyway I'm dead tired frustrated yet so cool thanks to my friends.

Responsibility || This is the reality check when it comes to responsibilites for me

I don't think I've been this tired my life concerning my academic life. The project has taken it's toll on me. It seems not just the physical effort you put into it that counts. But the mental stress you go through to get your act together.. This would have been a different story if I wasn't to be the leader. But here I'm leading a bunch of strangers. Well with leadership comes responsibility. And it was a strange feeling for me when people were actually looking at me to guide them. They were expecting me to make decisions. Not just decisions correct ones for that matter.

I have lead people before but this time circumstances were different. Different scenario altogether. These people, I never knew them before. And of cause except for a few most are average students. So it's up to me to get this group straight and take it forward. So may it be. This feeling for the first time gave me goose bumps. Was so uncomfortable to know that there isn't anyone else but it's just me. Darn!!

The whole weekend I was tired. Had to visit several companies to check out projects. And finally we found one. Which is a leading cable company in Sri Lanka. So it's crunch time. We have to pull our selves together and beat the deadlines which seem to loom over us like huge black thunder clouds.

I had my IELTS exams. I really don't want to comment about it for the time being. I'm so nervous about this project scene. Simply because my decisions would be under the microscope. And I'm feeling the heat. Hope I'll do well just for the sake of me and my other fellow team members.