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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

New me.... I guess... I wish.....

Well the transformaton is done i guess.  The profile change has taken it's effets on me lately.  Well I sort of feel it.  I love the more solitary life which i tend to have hated most time in my life.  It's seems to me that there's more to be discovered among yourself than in others.  And slowly I walk the path of rediscovering my self.  Distancing myself from society has been an integral part of my new profile change.

Well it's better to roughout whats's been hapening in the last few months.   As I'm Bloggin after a lapse of about 1-2 months.  Time flew by as fast as it could ever.  It was incredulously fast.  Well it had reasons to be so fast.  Of course the major fact been our project.  The semester long pain in our ass.  I sort of got through the project pretty fine, I guess.  And the experience was.... I dunoo, new?  it would be more of an overstatement to mention it as something new.  The people involved in it may be new but the work involved was certainly, bitterly and exhaustingly uneventful and had an air of been used.  Which if blamed should be upon my account, given the poor leadership qualities I have shown.  Although my team members may disagree on this fact I personally think I should rework my leadership skills in a major way.  Any how we managed to scape the project without that much of a hassale.  Well at the end enjoyed some innocent pride which poured in from some corner which made me feel quite good :)

Well thats just one aspect of my last few months.  The other one of course was the year end examination.  Well this was one exam that I actually did study a bit.  And today when I'm writing this entry I'm expecting results of this exam within the next 24 hours.  That's if SLIIT live's up to it's punctuality!!!  The exams was a mixture of exhaustion and unceratainty.  Coz the papers were designed in such a way that none of us were really sure about what we were about to expect.  We'll see that tommorrow. *fingers crossed.

Of course the other major topic.  My travel plans to the great outback!!.  That would be Aussie.  It seems Sri Lanka is categorized as a level 4 country in the latest rankings put up by the Aussie Foreign Dep't.  Thats all shit coz that would only mean more restrictions on what we have to show!! An yway I got my offer lettter from the Uni. And I'm now waiting for the final results to show up.  And I'm so nervous about it as well.

And now for the people update.  Hmm... Well I got to know about this beautiful young lady whom I met from my project(think I mentioned earlier in another entry).  Actually I've known her since before the project but only the project made me get to talk with her and get to know her better.  And I saw a totaly different side of her.  I should say she one of the truely inspiring people I've ever known.  The past couple of months also shed some light about a few people I've known for some time.  Which only made me cement my stance on my new makeoverof my profile.  I mean I was startled at how oppurtunistic people were.  That for certain people friendship is a mere thing that can be played with.  How genuine they were?  What shady ulterior motives that they had to make friends with me.   How they handled certain isssues which were quite sensitive to me.  All these matters which I think lead to revaluate my point of view about these people.  When I saw them turn a blind eye towards some issues and act as if nothing has happened and wanted to justify their actions made me sick.  It's just that yet again I've trusted the wrong people at the wrong hands.

My Health is quite a worry for me these days.  As I've been hit my a multitude of ailments.  So I think I should get some slep tonight.  I'll continue this post tommorrow night hopefuly that is. ;)

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