After a while

Well its been like 6 months b4 i posted any thing. Well i thought of starting my blog again
Things have changed all right. Met friends, failed exams, passed exams e.t.c ......
Country has changed as well....My favorite past times has also changed.....
Ok lets start from some where....hmm.....Well big news I've completed my 1st year at uni.....
Passed all 5 subjects and i'm rollin ahead on to the second year...And of coz as expected i failed ma cima exams ....This time 2 subjects....:-(....Well in the brighter side of life I quit Cima at least its over....At last i guess a nightmare is over......

I've met a lot of people. Well friends u could say. Had some fun times. But had my ups and downs here and there. Mainly I was damn depressed wen i was stuck inside my home...Caged bird . No where to fly I was really lonely. For a moment I wish I had a girl...;-)

Anyway got through those rough patches mainly bcoz of ma frnds. Hanging around them made me feel at ease. Well the other big news was my mom and sis went abroad. India actually. For 10 days. It was juz me and dad all 10 days.

I started badminton and chess at sliit..lol. Well seems to be interesting. And my chess moves, well forget about it, it would take me at least another 10 games before I regain my sight....
Well I'm not taking any of my games that serious. Just playing for the fun of it.

My favorite pas time has changed to Fight club. Well its an application inside facebook. Spends a lot of time there hanging around killing time. I've been spending awful lot of time in front of the computer lately. Well i have to say my life is starting to become really dull. Lately i have been reminiscing about my life how it has been and how it shall progress. Sometimes i feel really lonely.I feel a touch a helpless when that happens....

Well sumthing did happen. lastweek i got lost in the mountains for my vacation. Well with family and friends. My friends cousin was there. Whom I thought was really cute. Well when the trip ended it wasn't like before. Something had happened. Coz i knew for sure while we were there something had happened between us. I was damn confused and i didn't know what to do. So i juz let it be. But when i came home only i knew that something was missin...And that was dreadful. I knew for a fact that i wont meet her anytime soon. And that thought was awful.

I'm so confused. I'm having an emotional breakdown. Too many emotions criss crossing my brain!!! And i dont know what to hope for......

All shit!!!!!!

This CIMA shit was something that I wanted to stop way back. But my parents persisted that I should be doing it and now I have the repercussions in my hand!!!!! Failed both the subjects I did last time!!!!! One subject I knew would have failed before I even sat for the exam.. The other one was what I really hoped I would pass.....But oh shit I've failed it by a whisker juz 3 marks....And the money juz gone down the drain!!!!!

The mid term exams are coming around the corner. And pretty busy these days.... And my angel that I'm going after well it's still like that nothing new about it..Still couldn't muster the courage to go and speak to her!!!

An issue rose regarding a posting in the forum @ SLIIT where I got into a row with one idiot who couldn't take the idea of freedom of speech!!!! That bugger was juz attacking one of ma friends who had posted a useful link, which was appreciated by a lot of our fellow students there..... And I joined forces with ma friend and started the row. And after several postings the guy was humiliated from his head to toe. And the fellow students also get into the act by posting there support... The guy was so humiliated that I got the information from one of my friends that this guy was searching for us to hammer us and to cover up his humiliation... Both my friend and me was freaked out for sure, coz this guy was actually 2 years senior than us. I don know whats the situation about that guy now, but I'm not sure whether he's given up the search or if he's still on the look. All the same I'd hope he's given upppp!!!!!!

Life goes on rollin.... This kind of lull has set on ma life it seems... I don know it's strange...

White flags.....

Sad times..My grandma's elder sister died and had to attend the funeral today. One thing that I've figured out about me is that I find it very hard to cope up with partings. When some one leaves there's this sudden emotional rush that I get. Although I do my to best stop the tears, emotionally I find it very hard to face them. This person who died knew me well. But of course she was living very far, so we hardly met. But still today I got that emotional rush which I find very strange. Mainly because I know that I'm not that sensitive in a lot of matters. Although I have to say that I have certain matters I find myself very sensitive. I guess this one of them.

I can remember when I was 13 years old my mom went abroad. Just for a month to visit her brother in Aussie. I guess she knew that I would find it hard to face the fact that she's leaving for a month, and both my parents lied to me that she'll be off for some conference and will be back in a short time. But when I found out that she was actually gone abroad I wept my eyes off. Again after 3 or 4 years she went abroad but this time she told me. That time of coz I was older and I fought back my tears. Even then tears were imminent. Now I guess I'm out of that ordeal. But still I find it hard to face some one parting from this world!!!

The thoughts that run through my mind's pretty complex at that sort of time. I mean, I get this sudden realization about life that it's not permanent. And how I'd cope if it would've been some one who I really knew well?????

One things for sure life's not permanent. The only thing thats permanent is change. Thats how life is. But we are still humans and for that fact, according to my beliefs we are yet to attain nibbana for then only we'll lose all this stupid feelings and come into a state of self realization.......

Inverse!!!!

Well it's juz the opposite of the previous week......Every things juz changed upside down. Well overall it was a real good week. Compared to that shit week I had before. Well 1st things first. It was the "GET". It was juz fun from the word go. Got really wasted that night. And partyed till ma legs were numb. Chiks were all over the place. Both from Sliit and from outside. And of coz ma chief guest crush was there too.She looked really nice in a saree... Was gleaming off the crowd for me!!!! But as usual I couldn't get my self together and go ask her out. Well can be excused for the fact that the crush is juz a week or 2 old but the atmosphere and the event was surely made for the occasion. Nywayz other than that had the time of ma life over there. But the guys who did the dj sukd to the max. Poor music and sounds was a real glitch...
Nyway the crowd and the attitude of the ppl made it goin real fun..

Well now lets see the opposites. Last week this particular girl was gonna be there in my cima class which was real annoying thing for me. But all of a sudden she has dropped the subject and that worry is sort of over.

Last week I was sorta blooming with my new found crush. But this guy who use to be one of my friends was actually having a go at her. The shit was that this particular guy is actually from her same batch and is actually quite a good friend f her. Now this would only spell one thing and that's "B.U.L.L...S.H.I.T". I'm sorta out of sorts these days. Coz this guy actually knows me having a crush on this gal, and things aren't that good between us. Although we talk and smile face to face things aren't good inside. I don knw what should I do...Shoud i juz giv way for him and CRUSH MY CRUSH?????

I don knw...... But if somethings gonna happen, it's gonna happen pretty soon. But there's something that I know pretty well, and that's CHIKS AND ME IS SOMETHING WORLDS APART. I've never found myself comfortable with this matter at any point of my life. Juz that I can make friends pretty easily, but can't get myself together to go the distance!!!! So I'm not having very high hopes in this issue aswl.

These kinda stuffs pretty usual for me so I don't get depressed or fall mentally when sumtn goes wrong. Juz that I pick myself from the place where I fell and move on, not correcting myself though. For if I did, these things wouldn't have been repeated!!!!

Really f***ed up

Not the best of times for me....

Was sick for over a week. Now, I'd sorta forgot getting sick(Last time I was sick this bad was over a month ago). And this was a real bitter experience. Coughing in the middle of the lecture snoozing mucus all over the place. Hardly able to breath from both nostrils. Oh and those painful headaches, Juz shit. And to put some icing on the cake I also had a bad stomachache and found myself vomiting in the middle of the town!!!! Had to ask for help from some one to catch a trishaw to get home coz my stomach was really hurting!!!!!!

So obviously with all that drama going around I found myself going through what I would like to call a painful and "wet(mucus)" period. And of coz there were some developments in my life @ SLIIT. All of a sudden i found my self in the middle of a flowering crush with a gal who I use to know when I was very young....... Well to be frank I met her in a class where all of my colleagues were drooling over her....... Wow how things come around!!!

Some shit was also developing with gals for me. Theres this slut named B******. Who I knew when I was doing my A/L's and who was actually one batch senior to me. The story goes on to develop that this particular gal actually got caught kissing the guy who was marking the cards at this particular place. Any how which resulted in getting her fired and her been involved in a relationship with this guy which i suspect is still going on. She also was responsible for nearly 2 affairs inside SLIIT which ended up in ruining the life of a real innocent guy who had big prospects in his education........
Any way I don't think she had any idea of me being in the same class where that particular incident happened. But she was also following cima classes which also was the same place where I was studying at that time. But weekend. I use to talk little with her @ SLIIT, knowing the character. But things changed all of a sudden when she asked me my cima books which for some unknown and strange reason was not with her!!!!! I gave them and there still with her.... All right I don need them o anything. But then I changed my cima institute. And then this particular gal was showing huge interest about my new place..... And out of the blue moon she also changes her classes to the same institute which I was following Cima.

This is shit coz this is the only place where i have been studying properly coz there's hardly any friend of mine there.
No friends + no talk = Studying!!!
now
One slut + lot of talking = Failing!!!!( wasting a lot of money)

Not juz failing coz hanging around with her would mean a lot more aswl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh man I juz got no idea of getting out of this shit...........

Hope I could get things straight soon or I'll end up in stepping inside quick sand!!!( no where out)

Identity crisis

Well now this is really strange. For the first time in my life I'm sort of feeling isolated. This is really weird. Coz I'm feeling this in the most strangest of the places. It's at SLIIT. Where I've met with a serious problem of picking my friends. This is really strange coz all this started with one of my best friends going abroad who was sort of the last guy of our clan who I use to hang around with. I mean all this time when people were leaving I sort of never had that lonely kind of feeling. Coz this particular friend of mine and myself use to hang around a lot. And all of a sudden when he went I was sort of hit with a cement block. The most strange thing is that usually where ever I go I find people who I think would suit me the best to hang around. But strangely enough it never happened at sliit.



I've got an identity crisis at Sliit. Coz I can't figure out what kind of a person I should be. I'm not myself to start with. And I can't discover myself there as well. Wish I had my old friends there. Coz I feel really comfortable to hang around with them. I've got friends there and very good ones too but now as I look back at what I had, it's sort of this vacuum yet to be filled. I don't think I'll ever be my self at sliit and I'll never try, for what I've learned is that it would only be in vain. Yeah I know I've boasted about Sliit in one of my previous posts. But the times were different then. My former clan was quite intact. And we use to do all these crazy stuff together. Now only I've figured out that even then I 've had a friendship crisis at Sliit juz that it was over shadowed by the presence of my old friends. Now our old clan's in tatters. Only a few left and just as busy as I am.


And now for the first time in my life I feel really lonely. I guess this is what life is all about. Guess this the harsh truth about life and would be part of my learning process on my way to maturity as a complete person ready to greet more harsh facts on life.

Hope some thing big would happen and change everything to pick me up to start from where I left over..........

Going through that kind of a period!!!

Well what can you say when everything starts to go really fine for you after sometime?? Well that's what I'm going through right now.

let me start off, last week was the most boring and tired week I ever had. It started off with going to ma skul and trying to get my leaving certificate, and hell, I was really fucking pissed off with ma skul!! Alright that wasn't fun. But then the week moved on slowly with me sleeping most of the time and juz eating my time away surfing the net and watching T.V.

Weekend was really awesome. Y?? I got a new phone..Yahoo..It's a Nokia 6280. Man that rocks forever. And then Sliit reopened for the 2nd Semester. It meant a full stop for 2, very very boring months, except for a few mishaps here and there!!And my financial strengths increasing as I was watching it. Hmmm..... It is. Thanx for some kind donations and some hard work. And I've been working around this chik for a few weeks and it seems to be getting into ma head than I've thought....:D. Now that's after a long time huh...

And my home folks they have finally got over from that incident that I had in the mountain. Whoa now that's a relief.Hope this good times would juz keep up ...........

SLIIT rulzzz 4 ever

Sri Lanka Institute Of Information Technology

Code name:SLIIT
Citizens :Sliitations
Atmosphere:Cool and Funky




Folks SLIIT is the plc u wanna b.....Totally average plc...There are guys and gals from all walks of life...Really if u wanna get to knw abt the society with every corner covered SLIIT gives u the best chance 4 u to explore the society.




Out of all the private uni's in SL i think Sliit's the best equipped uni of 'em all. I mean It's really big(9 story building!!) . But thats not y Sliits so special for me. It's so special bcoz of the people u find there, they're juz awesome. It's a thriving community. We've got our own forum and loads of other activities. On a good day inside sliit U'll c 1000's of people buzzing here and there talking joking and studying all over the place.


I'm not boasting about o anything I mean every one basically knows how standard Sliit is...
So I ges I'm pretty lucky to be a part of it.........

Parents (specially dads)

This is a really annoying and frustrating topic....
I always wonder y does our dads doesn't give us the freedom that they had in there childhood?? It's really unfair..How they boast about them, while they have a drink and tell us like sweat corn!!
it's like they r there achievements... yeah alrit they r there achievements but there parents never restricted them or wat ever but for us??

Let me juz giv u sum of ma restrictions....(i'm a 19 yrs in 2007)

1. Must be home before 12:00 midnight.
2. Must tell them where I'm going.
3. Must give them a detailed description on what I'm upto.
4. Must tell them whom I'm with.
5. Must have a return time, any where past that I'll get a string of calls (like gals!!).
6. Can't take the car any where alone (that's the shit of all).
7.Films!!! This is the funniest thing... when ask to go for a film they sort of look down on me.


i'm not being lik anti parents here, coz I love them and all. But the thing is why can't they juz let us do stuff..

Here are the stuff they boast of doing!!!!

1. Going to kandy with one of there friends jeep. @ the gardens having beer. (Still skuln!!). There parents doesn't have a clue....
2. Watching movies ( They've watched 100's of movies....).
3. Going to one of these far away places where there's no light to visit one of there friends... Staying over( once I asked that and had a100 reasons y not).
4. Going to all these sports events and saying to us that the bus service was running till midnight those days!!!!
5. Breaking into one of the canteens stealing a chutney bottle thinking it was a jam an eating chutney all night!!
6. Getting into fights and boasting how they beat ppl up!! And they tell us we should behave our self.

Yeah we may have sneaked out and done better but when v ask to go out an stuff they restrict us. That's when I get really annoyed....
gee wonder when this would b over???

Ever wondered how a bloody mountain can ruin Your whole reputation???

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This is me folks....

Well I'm theeeeee average guy u know.... Not that I'm special o unique..#!$@#!..For that fact well who the hell in this world's alike!!!!!

I had a realy normal childhood.. Nothing out of the blue.... Other than the fact that I had dengue and I was down at the ICU for 1month....Yeah I was there.. And u know what the docs have said abt me??I've gotta fifty fiffty chance of been saved...Well mother nature must have had a bet with some one u now whether i'm gonna liv o not. Some how I survived the ordeal to tell the story. Mind u I had 2 go through some real big surgeries on ma way 2 recovery.

Well thats basicaly the most important thing that hpnd 2 me in ma child hood..

There are few ppl that are important in ma life other than ma parents that I think I should mention...
That's ma Grandma...And ma best friend KUSAL....
I've got 2 mention him....
Mind u he's been there with me in almost every important thing's in ma life....
Our history runs bac to the days of ma 1st B'day. He was there. Well v've had our ups and downs in our friendship lik any other relationship. But v've managed 2 battle our way through the odds..

Highlights of our friendship

* Was with me in ma 1st B'day.
*Skuld together from year3 -year 11(the best days of our lives).
*Got caught in the skul 4 a variety of mischievous acts.
*Had the first sip of alcohol together wen v were 7 o 8 yrs....
*Got Lost twice in the jungle. V were lost the 1st time in a jungle wen v were trekking in a jungle in Aththanagalla. Got a real lesson from our parents that time....Last time v got lost was wen v were trekking in a jungle near worlds end. V were high up in the mountains with the clouds when v suddenly got the realization that v were behind schedule.
*Went aftr chiks together and once actually got into a fight bcoz of one...
*Shared a lot important ppl inour life.
Thats him Kusal....

If U cld juz take ma best friend outta ma life then ma childhood wld juz hav an empty black hole...

CURRENT STATUS

Well I've finished ma A/l's....
I'm doing a degree course @ the Sri Lanka Institute of Information Technology.
Thats a real cool plc..I'll have to post a seperate post about sliit...
I'm also following Cima as a side line....I realy hate it mind u. I'm not that good @ commerce subjects.
But I've got a real craze for animation and programming. Thats sorta ma life u know..I realy love to spook arnd ma computer....

I'm hardly an outdoor person. but I can't live inside for too long either. I some how get the hell put of the house and go around the town.....

I'm a real free person. I hate to b tied down on ma feelings. I'm also a ppl observer. That's sumtn that I really njoy a lot, 2 observe ppl.....
I'm also huge fan of music. alot of hip hop and alternative plus rap....

Some how I manage to get a lighter perspective of life in every tight corner. One thing that I gav up on ma life is ma country.. I mean v've cum to that edge where evry thing in our country is so corrupt that I tend to hate it so much...
My view about our country is that sumday v'lll get soo dependent on international aid that v'll b debt stricken to a point where v'll hav to sell our country.... ya ppl that days very near.....


Thats basically me... a real ordinary guy
Soo peace to u all....

T.C
It's Skywalker over and out 4 now