Dull unsophistacated and uncomplexed...That would be my life!!

It's like coming to this grim realization at the end of the day, after what ever said and done my life is still the same. Nothing's changed. I tried so hard to change me. But it's not working. The only thing which has changed is the point of view in which I look at the world. A more matured point of view I wonder?? Hmm well I dunno. So strange that I can't figure out myself after 21 years!!

My life is so uncomplicated. I don't have to think so hard to make decisions on my life. And worst of them all it's so predictable(except for the exams). Yeah my exams are like the only drama I get in my life. Other drama, I create myself to appease myself. And when all is done I reminisce about it and I like hav this feeling at the back of my head telling me " U did it for yourself mate".

Even my physique hasn't changed in ages. Same old me!! My weight of coz hasn't budged from around (42-45)!! I'm a freaking walking skeleton!! As astounding as it may sound. It really bothers me. I'm really worried about myself. Hmm whining I guess now I am.....

Nothings been wrong last couple of weeks. I got through my exams. Connected with my cousins after ages. Met my friends.. OH and got sick!! I love that one i guess. That's at least drama. After once in a while. I can talk about it. I actually Wikipedia all my ailments and all the medicine I got. It was so fascinating to learn about what u get and what u hav.

Had a night out with some of my friends. It was really cool. Once in a while to booze out in the beach, in the night too. Got a busy schedule coming up. Got the colors night of the uni day after tomorrow. And am so confused on what am I suppose to do with my B'day. Coz the guest list seems to be a bit too big!!!

And I dunno These days am havn doubts abt some ppl. Questioning there motives. hidden agendas. And i'm really striving to get answers about them. What are these people really upto?? Who knows..... Over and out...

Ciao