Departed, farewell

Well life it is.... We are born for one thing. And that's death. We all die one day, Juz that when it'll embrace us is the big question. One of my friends (and relative) embraced it last week. Which was a shocker which took me out of no where. I was really taken back with this, Reminding me of how fragile life is. Resistance is futile, juz that u Should do something to make it better and definitely not longer. And I'm sure my friend had done all the things right to make his life better and not longer. His untimely death was no means a thing to be sad about juz because how well and full he lived all his short life, would make it look as if he may have outlived most of the sinners in this world. Only an angel can be even compared to this friend of mine who was truly good at heart. Guess all good things have to come to an end.

What amazes me is that I can't think nothing he ever did to break someone or hurt someone. How innocent and genuine he was. I thought for myself that he never belonged here. Guess this is natures way of balancing good and evil. We sinners juz have to watch em all good men die.

Farwell my friend... May you attain Nirvana... Eternal bliss.....:'(

Ohhh..Not again...Hav my excuses..

Shit... I know it's been way to long for me to make a post. But this time its for real. Moi really busy these days. It's the darn project that's ticked me off for good. Its juz too much for an average 21 year old to handle. Any way, where to start? So much has happened the past few days.

Hmm well I never thought I would have to mention about Jello here. But yes I have to. Some shit has happened and by now I guess its juz ok. But juz to make a note I would have to mention wht really happened. I got to know from Contession that jello has told her to ask something from me. Hmm alrit whats this? Well it seems this guy (I assume she's goin out with) had told her that I'm talkin bull about him. * Screach to a break!! Whoa now hold on a sec. What was that again?? Yep you heard me right. What the fuck I hardly knows the guys name. And I'm suppose to talk bull about him!!! Get a life pal I thouht for my self. I actualy didn't even go talk with him. It's his problem aight? He should come and talk with me. He didn't come and talk either.

Out of all the bull shit it's been all up and down. Sigiriya ofcouse, the batch trip. OMG juz was an awesome ime we had. Juz blasted our selves. ANd yeah no booze!!! U imagine that we juz blasted ourselves withput a single drop of alcohol. So its possible.

Got my IELTS results. Got thru it. But it seems my semester GPA has dropped drastically coz of my Imagincup endeavour......

Project update... Submitted the proposal, the SRS and had our prototype presentation. Well all of them were cool I guess. Well I hope so. I did screw some stuff though as the leader. Take full reponsibility for my actions. But then again does it really matter. Coz it want change anything would it? ButI have to say that I have been working my ass off last few days for this so called project.

SLIIT is juz awesome as ever before. Guess thats what really makes life roll. I mean amidst all this chaos, downs and frustration the people who are really close to you they juz make u roll. I'm so happy that I have a lot of people who can make me feel better when things ain't that well.

Guess thats my update after a long time. Oh and have to say my bus ride's got a lot more eventful lately. If u know what I mean ;)

Someone revealed | Tired

Well, something juz made me forget about someone, which was pretty hard for me to do for sometime now. And this someones true nature is so perplexing. It seems that people around this someone (I mean the people really close to this one) hardly knows of this persons double life. I particularly sympathize on someone I know who trust this someone too badly. And if this someone I know, gets to know about this I really don't know what this someone would do. So let's just say I really don't know about it.

But I'm sure this will come out soon enough so that everyone would know. Whats so strange is that I have no clue whatsoever for why this person is hiding this from the rest of the world? Well then this someone may have their own reasons. So may it be. Well the someone I know who knows this someone thinks they know about this someone. And I feel pity that this someone has betrayed the someone I know badly. From what I know the someone I know cares a lot about this someone. And this someone has mislead them all.

So tired thanx to our projects. Had to go out with my team to get information about the system that we are going to build. Came back and started to work furiously on writing the project proposal. It's a piece of shit. Got to write our ass of to fulfill the needs of our dear beloved project lecturer. Apparently who seem to be the most cursed person at SLIIT right now! Anyway I'm dead tired frustrated yet so cool thanks to my friends.

Responsibility || This is the reality check when it comes to responsibilites for me

I don't think I've been this tired my life concerning my academic life. The project has taken it's toll on me. It seems not just the physical effort you put into it that counts. But the mental stress you go through to get your act together.. This would have been a different story if I wasn't to be the leader. But here I'm leading a bunch of strangers. Well with leadership comes responsibility. And it was a strange feeling for me when people were actually looking at me to guide them. They were expecting me to make decisions. Not just decisions correct ones for that matter.

I have lead people before but this time circumstances were different. Different scenario altogether. These people, I never knew them before. And of cause except for a few most are average students. So it's up to me to get this group straight and take it forward. So may it be. This feeling for the first time gave me goose bumps. Was so uncomfortable to know that there isn't anyone else but it's just me. Darn!!

The whole weekend I was tired. Had to visit several companies to check out projects. And finally we found one. Which is a leading cable company in Sri Lanka. So it's crunch time. We have to pull our selves together and beat the deadlines which seem to loom over us like huge black thunder clouds.

I had my IELTS exams. I really don't want to comment about it for the time being. I'm so nervous about this project scene. Simply because my decisions would be under the microscope. And I'm feeling the heat. Hope I'll do well just for the sake of me and my other fellow team members.

Escapade to Dambulla

Alright me back from Dambulla. Ohh escapde?? Ya bit I guess. Nut this wasn't really the escape that I had in my mind. Well Haldummulla scars are yet to be healed. Well it all started with a text message I recieved Friday evening from my best buddy saying he will show up. Well I was pretty happy about it. I mean come on was supposed to be the most boring outing. I was dead tired when I showed up at uncle Basils place thanx for some all day cricket fiesta. Ayomi akii was there and so was Russ. Me my buddy, Ayomi akki and my sis all got into Russ's vehicle and we sped off.

And wow we started getting calls from our parents asking us to travel in tandem with there vehicles (in the middle!!) as soon as we tried to speed. Well poor Russ had a nasty time controlling his emotions just hit the the peddle. Well it was all fun inside the car with all of us cracking jokes and stuff. Anyway the boring drive came into an end and here we are in Dambulla at a around 2.00 'o clock I guess.

Me and my buddy started off the with moving stuff. Darn it was messy. And I was damn tired as well. I went to sleep almost immediately. The mosquito's gave me a hell of a time stinging and buzzing. So it wasn't comfortable at all. Rosa showed up that morning to liven things up. Guess she too was bored with proceedings that day. I mean it was juz below ordinary. We were stuck inside this house with plenty of food to eat. No alcohol and the great out doors were out of bounds for us. Thanx to our wonderful past records. Geez I just went three papaya trees away from the garden. And bang fire alarms!! Mom dad uncles aunts all calling us to come back!! I was frustrated with my folks and was in a bit of a grumpy mood. Guess the Dambulla heat made it even worse.

The day was an utter waste. I was so frustrated that I actually wasted a day which I could have made some money while having some fun, if I was at home. Next day woke up. And was so eager to get the hell out of that wretched place. Anyway I guess Basil uncle was a bit upset(only person to even think about what we felt!!!) about us feeling so grumpy. So he decided to take us to the pool. Ya well that was awesome. specially with the Dambulla heat. And yeah it was time to get home. Was so pleased. And we drove back in Russ's car. Met chinthsz on the way. Was back from the Bradby.

What was the real fun in this escapade?? Ya good queation. Well at least I had my eyes off from a computer for 3 days straight. And of coz hanging around with my favorite friends was reallly awesome. The food was juzt superb!! Loved it all the way. Thanx to Nilanthi auntie. Well the pool and thats it i ges. The worst drive I've ever had so nothing there.

SO that was the great escapade. Escapade I guess.

Project!!

It was the third day of our second semester. We got the message the previous night that our project groups have been announced. And we were all nervous and our fingers crossed hoping our friends would click together. The shuttle came late that morning so we were in a real hurry. As for the fact that I had cut my earlier lecture which was suppose to be my 1st lecture, this was my first lecture. So I was in a real hurry. Still I couldn't resist the urge to have a peek on my project group. I rushed into the notice board and had a look. Feverishly searching for my name. Clock was ticking and couldn't find my name. So I went to the lecture. Inside everyone was talking about the project groups. I tried to see if anyone had checked my name. I was shocked to hear that I was a standalone player in my group!!!! Noway. No friends? Well no one they knew.

I was so damn frustrated the whole lecture. Was practically counting the seconds away till it was finished. And bang I sped away from the lecture room to check the groups. And I finally found my name on the list with the help from one of my friends. I was going through my buddy list. And gosh... There they were. Some chiks I knew. At last some one I know. And my friends were true. There wasn't anyone from our click.

Well the only one I really know in our group was a girl from our batch. Have to say she's really good. And has a near 4.0 GPA. So I wasn't really all down with our group. The other girl I knew was actually from batch 2. Well lets juz say we used to text each other through the course web those days. And this was the 1st time we actually met and talk. Some other guys were there too. Out of them there was only one person whom I knew properly.

But all in all my guess is that our group seem to be on the better side compared with what others had! And I'm sort of looking forward to start off my project work too.

Oh and this is really interesting. I think I've mentioned about this woman in my blog long time back. I had a crush on this particular woman. Well I heard today that this woman was seen hanging around with this guy in a shopping mall. Someone told me she was going out with a guy but this was the real confirmation. Guess it should be curtains down on her..lol.

I'm going out this weekend with my parents and some friends. Well C in particular. My best buddy seem to be not coming and I've got the feeling that this is going to be one of those boring weekend trips I've been. I wander even if C would appear. Gosh I'm going to hang on a return bus to Pettah and come back home if that happens!!

Cmon...moi that unimportant!!!!! WTF was I thinking!!!

Ok this sukzz. Well it didn't start out that bad. It all started with a friends B'day treat. One of my friends who was going out with one of Jello's friends invited me and another friend of me to help them out in a project. Thou I was a bit lousy getting into this given my previous experience I just thought it maybe for a good cause (Helping out). Anyway my friend was all hyped up about this and I was dragged on to this. Well I had the 1st ever meeting with a client in a bit of a professional level. Well to be frank the only professional thing about our meeting was tea!! Which our client bought us generously. Jello wasn't there. Heard she was inside a lecture. Which obviously meant that these women were cutting lectures. Couldn't really accuse them of anything thanks for the fact that I was cutting my lectures too!!! Anyway 4gt about those plastics.. All the while they were explaining this question they made remarks such as "Ane mei gollo hari shok ne..." "Hari sweet ane.." Was thinking to my self and was saying "Ya my ass.." Plastics all the way.

Anyway our rendezvous with the plastics ended and we went off to play cricket. Had an awesome time. And the plastics even came to the field and got me a printed version of the question. Well have to say one woman who was with'em didn't really suite be called a plastic. So this particular team was made up with the 2 plastic chiks Jello and the other non plastic woman. Guess she's organic or what ever.

Was dead tired when I came back home but started doing the presentation. And then only it struck to me that Oh no, this is damn hard. I had to go through endless search pages read'em and simplify'em and write them in my own words. Thank god we had Operating systems last semester which really helped me. I was suppose to mail this presentation before 10.30 p.m to Jello. well it was 10.15 and I still had about 5-6 slides left and none of the animations and effects were really finished. Then one of the plastics called me up and told me to bring the presentation tomorrow morning. I said ok and finished the Presentation some where around 12:30. By the time I had dozed off a couple of times infront of the computer and my eyes hurt really badly. And of coz Contession bugged me too.

And then woke up in the morning when my phone rang, which displayed a land line no. I was like WTF this early, who the hell is this. Then I got the feeling that this might be one of the plastics. And I answered. My voice was all hoarse and my head was all turning. Ohh it was Jello. She had expected my mail last night and was checking whether I had mailed it. And of course I hadn't. So it happened and I got dressed and was off to SLIIT.

Gave the presentation in the morning. Was juz me and Jello in the morning at the labs. And I must have mumbled about ummm... 10 words all the while? Ya I guess. Anyway I gave it and after a while her friends showed up. I gave a breif explanation about the show and retired to play ET with my friends.

And then in the evening Contession came up and bugged me saying I got a call in the morning. Was wandering..hmm how did she know?? and she told me that Jello got the no from her. I didn't want to get bugged furthermore so I went off. And then it got into my mind wait a sec Jello had called me several times before. That was back when I did her 1st Presentation. So why ask for my no? Of coz I dunnno whether it was my right brain or my left brain which answered saying "Duh idiot she doesn't have it...And why the fuk should she ever have it...." Reality check 1.1

No wonder why there was no reply from Jello for my new year wishes(embarrassing even when I recall it). Reality check 1.2. Well it was the real story. What was I thinking in the first place. Who am I to even have a crush on some one like Jello? Skinny, small, piece of joke to even think of some one like that?? duh! Reality check 1.3. Thats when it all really struck me. I wonder how many people really even know me seriously except for the fact that I'm a real piece of joke at SLIIT(For that fact my whole life time). I always wandered what people thought of me. How they sized me up. How seriously they took my feelings, my opinions and of course what I care. Most importantly how important I was for them as a person. Well a chain reaction of thoughts just carried me to the ends of my personality.

I know for a fact that a reality check is never easy for me. I mean when was it easy? Well this time around I felt really unimportant. Anyway 2nd semester kikn off....Groups have been assigned for the projects. And oh Boy I've got no idea who'll be my new team mates!!!